So, when it comes to blogging, I have a bit of a love/ hate relationship with it.
I LOVE blogging, being creative and having a place to have an outlet, but when it comes to the motivation circle, I crumble and burn. My day job is tough. I love it, but it tends to suck most of the energy pods you have in your body out of you, leaving you looking like a shrivelled grape in the corner and, to be honest, the only thing I think about when I get to the end of a day is how long is will take me to put my PJs on and get comfy on the sofa. Blogging is literally the last thought to cross my brain and I am equal parts heart broken and completely okay with it.
However, recently, the thought of blogging is all I can think about – almost like an intrusive thought. I know that I have a this need to blog, but I don’t even know what it is I want to write about. There’s just something in me itching to get out and I don’t know what it is.
I knew a long time ago that I wanted to have blogging in my life but nothing big would come of it – something that I’ve completely accepted and doesn’t really phase me in the grand scheme of things. That’s why when I created That’s All Maj Wrote I vowed not to delete it when dust started to collect, like every other blog I’ve ever created over the past 5 years, and that it would be here for when I needed – no guilt allowed. However, sometimes I really do wish I had more time and urgency for it.
It’s something that I crave in my life but equally dismiss as taking up too much time and energy that during term times I just don’t have (which is why most of my blog posts get dropped during holidays). No matter how hard I try, I just can’t keep up with it in term time – mainly due to my brain being so full of other things to work on – and I kinda hate myself for not trying harder.
Either way, it’s been around 3 months since my last post dropped (and I’ve basically thought about blogging 3 times since then) and I’m starting to get the bug again. I don’t imagine it will stick or that the schedule will magically be adhered to again, but if I could get a little post here and there written I’d be happy. I love the idea of having my life written down and my mental health journey for me to follow, I just wish I hadn’t deleted all of the blogs in the past to see how truly far I’ve come.
So, it’s back to trying to catch up with blogging again (and probably failing). I have a gazillion unread articles on bloglovin’ to read and thousands of posts from my favourite bloggers to catch up on. Wish me luck!
Do you ever come and go from blogging? What do you wish you were better at?